Besides an ice storm knocking out power and putting us in the dark and cold for a week, and the larger problems in the world at large posing all sorts of challenges for everyone right now, there are issues closer to home that are of a deeper, more immediate concern that have side-tracked my creative writing.
First, a day after my Mom’ birthday, my Dad had a stroke on the morning of December 17th. It’s maddening this happened to him as he takes care of himself really well. He walks 3 miles a day – every day – and does weight training with dumbbells three times a week. He listens to his doctors, takes his meds regularly as well as a regimen of vitamins. Yet, he had a stroke that left him paralyzed on his left side.
It turns out it was his meds that led to the stroke. Dad has an inherited heart condition (his mom died from it) where his heart beats too fast and the meds are supposed to keep his heart rate in the 60-70/bpm range. On the day of his stroke his heart rate was down to the high 30’s – low 40’s – not good at all. What happened is his heart rate was so low for a long enough time to where the blood pooled in his heart and formed a clot. When the clot traveled to his brain, he blew a small embolism and had a stroke.
When I was finally able to speak to him a few days later on my birthday, he was not in a good mood. It was the most depressed and despondent I have ever heard him. In fact, throughout my entire life, I don’t recall my father being depressed – ever. He was on the phone with me only for a minute – long enough to say (in an unaccustomed, slurred voice), “Happy birthday. They tell me I’m going to get better…I think they’re full of shit…here, talk to your mother.”
Dad was in a grand funk and didn’t even want to live. To tell the truth, I empathize with that mind set. I’d be much the same way if I took care of my health the way he has, walked three miles and lifted weights one day and the very next you can’t do that any more. I’d be pissed and depressed and not want to live if I couldn’t do things for myself any longer. Some birthday. Over the long run though, I know he will get through this – Dad’s no quitter.
On Christmas, Mom said his temperament wasn’t much better. I gave him a call. I wasn’t going to give him pity or sympathy – Dad doesn’t like that – neither do I. Instead I gave him support and encouragement. I asked about his therapy and he perked up when he talked about how tough it was and how tired he’d get afterward. It made him feel like he was doing something, making progress.
I didn’t want to tell him to fight – I was afraid he’d say he didn’t want to fight and struggle. Instead, I told Dad he’s always been a hard worker and this is just another job, another project to work on. That he’s always had great self-discipline to get things done and to work with what he had available to him. I told him he’s still the same guy that made an engine gasket out of cardboard, and a great kid’s sled out of scrap aircraft aluminum. He always finds a way over, around or through a problem or obstacle. I told him I have complete confidence that he is going to approach his therapy and recovery with the same discipline, creativity and work ethic that he does everything else.
Mom said later that the calls my sisters and I made to him on Christmas gave him a lift and turned his attitude around. He was motivated and determined to do the best he can…and I know he will.
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The second issue has to do with my older brother. He has contracted Hepatitis-C and is very ill. He moved back east from California, and is living with a friend in Connecticut. He is in a program through Yale University Hospital, waiting for a liver transplant. Without it he will die. He told me the way the list works is not ‘first-come-first-served’, but whoever is sickest is highest on the list, and I guess he’s pretty high up on the list. I heard from him a couple of times in early December, but Mom said he’s been going through a bad stretch at the moment and is too ill to communicate with anyone right now.
Last Friday, I went back to work on revisions of my latest novel from this year’s NaNo efforts, but stalled out again over the weekend. I will get back to it because I am my father’s son and will use his same determination to finish it.
All I can do for now is hope and intend that Dad and my brother’s health improves markedly and that everyone else in the extended family find their ways to better health and living in 2009.